i hate baby's breath. but it does make some damn fine looking model trees.

and i've learned -- don't change shoe types in the middle of a stressful week. when your feet hurt, everything suddenly seems even more awful



ok time for history or sleep. whichever actually happens

i'm so good at not writing for months -- then i only write to say that the stress is finally manifesting itself beyond small annoyances and panic is arising. too bad that's when i seem to be best at getting stuff done for final crits.

it's so weird how stress that's been internalized can't even be felt, yet when it finally starts manifesting externally only then do i understand just how much of it there is... how do i get to stay so calm when it's internal?

can't i just go back to visiting museums in new york?