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OMG it's Spring Break! It's such a breath of fresh air or something -- I hadn't realised how much I'd become used to my monthly three and a half day block breaks! I've gone straight through the last eight weeks of 40-hours work + 11 hours class + a minimum of 26 hours of homework really without a break on top of ALL the boy drama. So this morning after an hour on the phone with a progressive drunker Tessa I crashed and slept and stayed in bed until 2:30 PM! PM, people! I didn't have to get up and do studio homework or feel negligent for not putting every ounce into my homework or sketchbook. it was amazing. Then I got up and ate cookies... and my belt is still too big for my waist (this is the black belt too, not the brown one that I had to give up using two months ago -- the one i got while in undergrad b/c the black belt became to , gasp, small.) mmm, cookies. for breakfast.

last night was insane though -- Kim couldn't get out of NYC b/c greyhound canceled busses from 6pm on, so she's coming next weekend now which might be better as I could feasible get my room cleaned up enough for her to have space to crash. school closed again (not surprising as there aren't classes on Friday night anyway!) but i didn't know so I T'ed-it in and went to North Face and then Patagonia b/c i was desperate for a hat that I just bought one at each place. Then I got to school and it was CLOSED so there was no SDC meeting and I didn't get to find out if ... Oppie (it's his name, I swear!) would be there and if I could figure out if he's someone I want to be a friend or not and so then I'm standing there (luckily in the airlock) trying to figure out where I can go until 10.30 when Kim is suppose to get in b/c I don't want to go all the way back out ot Brighton just to turn around and go back into South Station. I'm thinking, it's too bad Kris is already back in Conn. (she lives around the corner next to the Pru) when my phone rings... it's Kris, she had to meet a client in the morning and now can't drive to Conn and asks me to meet her at Solas for a drink! Kim later calls and informs me of Greyhound's sad announcement. So Kris and I have dinner and another drink. She called the boy to invite him down to join us -- I am restricted from phoning him -- but he didn't answer and hasn't called back as far as i know.

This leads me to the current analysis on the boy -- who has been kicked off the island -- it's final, he's seriously off. I realised in the middle of the snow-intense T ride that nothing is going to happen. I think Sunday night's declaration of 'I don't know what to do with my feelings for you' has left him thinking the ball's in my court -- if you can tell me how his telling me that means that the ball is in MY court, then someone please enlighten me -- and since he's out traveling and home this week, I don't think he's going to phone me. On top of that I think a week away is going to leave him forgetting about me or just it's going to be the time to step away and even if he doesn't make a decision (which I don't think anymore that he's capable of) he's going to think that he doesn't want to do anything about me ... and as Sen's pointed out, do I really want to be with a boy who can't decide if he wants to be with me? And my answer is no. If he does decide he wants to be with me, he's really going to have to give me a reason and more than the 'I like how I feel when I'm around you' reason he's given me before. but i don't think anything's going to happen -- he might think the ball is in my court, but it's in his honestly. and i don't expect a call next week. it's probably for the best and I can deal if he doesn't call -- i don't think i'll be that broken up -- i mean at least i know where he stands than and that's really all i need to know at this point.

my hair is finally long enough to put into cute little straight braids, but i think i'm going to get it cut this week anyways -- it's almost to the point of being long enough that it's going to very quickly get shaggy -- bleg. other fashion news: i've also hit this point where I WANT to wear skirts! so I guess i'm going skirt shopping sometime soon. who knew someday i'd like skirts again! though i have to admit that patagonia is my new favorite store of the month -- i had no idea that they were so sustainable oriented!

new favorite thing: pandora!

tonight was delightful -- scattorgories at sally and matt's with bobby too... nice, easy, relaxing. though i'm not sure if bobby still wants to live together -- sigh. i really can't afford to live with the amount of space i need on my own but i don't know who else to live with and i need something somewhat easy to get to school on.... i'll see... something will work out. oh and i walked in tonight (granted i haven't seen my girls in about a month now) and they both noticed that i have lost weight, so that was exciting!

sen and i are mock 'cutting studio' next wednesday! we'd never actually skip studio so we're celebrating our freedom and recent weight loss by going jeans shopping! hmmm shopping....

i so have to get my school work photo-documented this week too! i really need to get on top of that so my portfolio when i start actually getting it built isn't completely going to kill me!

ok movie/sleep time, as i have to clean and do taxes demain.... but i'll leave you with a few photos that haven't gotten posted yet...